Start to a New Year

Well, my husband and I have started talking, and we both agreed to change starting the new year.  He is going to help me out around the house more and I am going to try to keep up with the basic cleaning and laundry around the house.  I have been slipping and I admit it.  I am happy that he has agreed to help me more though to help make it easier.  Last night we both even helped each other clean the bedroom really good and moved the furniture around also.  It looks great. 

As for the baby making, we are really going to start at it big time next month.  We were only able to do it once this month do to things getting in the way so I don't really think this is going to be our month.  You never know though.  I am hoping that it will happen soon though, because I would like to try to have a baby not to far from my friend.  It is always nice to have someone else going through the same thing as you so you can go through it together.

In the meantime though, I am going to use this year to help improve myself, to make me a better person.  I am really going to focus on finishing up my Associates degree by the end of next year.  I am also going to really try to start cooking more homemade dinners too.  Just like what my mom use to make.  I also figured it will be good practice too for when we do eventually have a child. 

I am hoping that this year is going to be a good year.  I think it will.

Unsure

Well last night my husband and I had a huge fight.  It is the times like these that really make me wonder if I want to add a child to the mix.  I would say it has probably been a couple of months, if not more since we last had a argument, but when we do fight, I also start questioning the relationship.  We definitely have more good days then bad though and I know every couple argues.  I think that when he raises his voice though, it just brings back memories of being a kid and listening to my parents arguing all the time before they eventually got a divorce.

As for the baby thing though this is our second month of trying and we have only done it once so far.  I think though that the rest of this month, I am not going to initiate anything else, and lets see if he does.  He knows that I am in my fertile time right now, so lets see.  I think that me pressuring him and giving him this time frame is getting to him too.  He has Low T to begin with and so I am sure the stress of a time frame isn't help at all. 

I guess I will just see what happens this month.